Knowing When To Let Go

Sometimes I think that I am the queen of not being able to let go. There are some people that I can’t let go of. There are some ideas that I can’t shake off, the expectations that I put on myself. The thoughts that are inside my head when I can’t go to sleep at night. Sometimes I just don’t know when to let go. Continue reading

I Remember

I remember the first time I saw you, it felt like there was electricity in the air. The air felt like a thunderstorm coming at us, and in a way, it was. From the moment that I saw you, I knew you were special, you were different.

I remember getting to know you, getting to know your ticks, the things you love, and having reasons why you were right for me. I was envisioning my life with yours, I was giving you the benefit of the doubt, giving myself and all of my life for the first time.

I remember falling for you. I remember loving your smile even though you tried to hide it, the way you talked with your hands – your hands becoming more animated as you got more excited. There was something so innocent, so natural, so perfect about you. You became my safety net, the person that I could confide in. The person that I wanted.

I remember loving you, loving you for your highs and lows. We were two different people, but we fit together like a puzzle.

I remember you breaking my heart. Doing what you said what you would never do.

I remember you digging the knife deeper and deeper, I remember when it felt hard to breathe, hard to let go, move on and forgive. I remember my heart skipping beats and hurting as I saw you. I remember it all.

I don’t remembered how it happened, but I let it go. It just felt like I let go of a breath that I held for so long. For the first time in a long time, I didn’t want you, didn’t want your lies, didn’t want to be tangled in your web.

Today I saw you both today and I didn’t breakdown, not one tear escaping.

I forgot you.