Sometimes I think that I am the queen of not being able to let go. There are some people that I can’t let go of. There are some ideas that I can’t shake off, the expectations that I put on myself. The thoughts that are inside my head when I can’t go to sleep at night. Sometimes I just don’t know when to let go. Continue reading
I remember the first time I saw you, it felt like there was electricity in the air. The air felt like a thunderstorm coming at us, and in a way, it was. From the moment that I saw you, I knew you were special, you were different.
I remember getting to know you, getting to know your ticks, the things you love, and having reasons why you were right for me. I was envisioning my life with yours, I was giving you the benefit of the doubt, giving myself and all of my life for the first time.
I remember falling for you. I remember loving your smile even though you tried to hide it, the way you talked with your hands – your hands becoming more animated as you got more excited. There was something so innocent, so natural, so perfect about you. You became my safety net, the person that I could confide in. The person that I wanted.
I remember loving you, loving you for your highs and lows. We were two different people, but we fit together like a puzzle.
I remember you breaking my heart. Doing what you said what you would never do.
I remember you digging the knife deeper and deeper, I remember when it felt hard to breathe, hard to let go, move on and forgive. I remember my heart skipping beats and hurting as I saw you. I remember it all.
I don’t remembered how it happened, but I let it go. It just felt like I let go of a breath that I held for so long. For the first time in a long time, I didn’t want you, didn’t want your lies, didn’t want to be tangled in your web.
Today I saw you both today and I didn’t breakdown, not one tear escaping.
I forgot you.
Here is a list of some of the songs I was jamming to this month, what is on your playlist?
Here is my April playlist, what songs were you listening to this past month? Happy May! Continue reading
Hello, it’s (was, since I’m putting this post up after they air) Oscar Sunday. This year I tried to watch as many of the films that were up, there were many great films nominated but only a few win. Here were my predictions for the Oscars.
What were your predictions? What was your favorite movie? What did you think about the awards?